This week we’re looking at chapter four of Wild and Free. If you haven’t bought your book yet, don’t worry! You can still join in.
Chapter four focuses on the fact that God is a God of freedom. Yet we tend to live lives that are small and scared. One reason is that we don’t know what to do with grace. While this chapter includes many important ideas, I’ll focus on God’s extravagance and the older brother in the Prodigal Son parable. I can’t wait to hear what impacted you as you read.
In God’s economy, there is no lack in His resources, and it means He is extravagant and free to give. P. 86
I have seen and experienced God’s extravagance, and yet I still find myself questioning. I know as a daughter, I am able to tap into God’s Kingdom. But sometimes I find myself feeling like the pauper, uncertain of where my next meal will come from. I’ve lived my life for God — not perfect, but consistently. It’s why I’ve never loved the Prodigal Son parable. I was/am the older brother.
And I don’t like the sense that there’s extravagance for the one who left. Then I read this chapter. What leapt out at me — again — in this story is the idea that the older brother always had the father. He never lost relationship. Yet the father makes it clear the older brother didn’t step into his inheritance. He served with reluctance. I can imagine the attitude, because I know I’ve had it at times. Of course I’ll say yes. It’s what’s expected, but I really want to do anything but this thing. Can I get an amen?
Sometimes I wonder if our privilege keeps us from experiencing the true soul freedom God has for us. P. 87
This sentence pierces me. I’ve had the privilege of knowing God from a young age. The sheer grace of avoiding so much heartache, by the nature of having a heart toward Him. Yet I still find myself leading a small life or terrified when I know God is clearly telling us (me) to do something and we step out in obedience. I have seen God’s extravagant answers to the desires of my heart, and I still question.
I don’t want to do that anymore. I want to launch off the cliff in obedience with the sheer joy of wondering how God will make it all work out. I want to turn off the over-sized planner, and simply say, “God, I trust You in this.” I try, but I know I fail.